Atlas

Atlas, graduate of the Skyland Trail adolescent program, shares her story in the 2023 issue of Journeys Magazine

My anxiety has kind of always been there. And then things started to ramp up around early high school. I had lost people close to me, and I had several traumatic experiences. I faced a lot of bullying, and, even with unconditional love from my family, I felt an overall lack of support.

My baseline anxiety was no longer just 7 out of 10; it was an 11. I started developing other issues like depression, outbursts of anger, and urges to self-harm. Despite therapy and treatment, I really struggled to find any healthy way of coping and had resigned myself to suffering.

After several stays in acute facilities, I was at a point of crisis. And so when my mom found Skyland Trail, I was ready and willing.

Unlike the acute facilities, which had felt traumatizing to me, Skyland Trail was a supportive environment, which really made all the difference. At first I had some struggles, especially with my social anxiety. But when my anxiety intensified and felt impossible to cope with, I had the support I needed from my treatment team to learn how to help myself.

Later in treatment, I was able to manage a life crisis on my own. It was everything. I felt immense pride in myself. And then I started having hope that, “Hey, I can do this, I’ve got this. I know the skills and I can actually use them. And maybe I have a shot at life.”

Since I completed treatment, everything’s changed, really. I think that me coming into my identity has allowed me to support my mental health in many ways. I don’t get nearly as angry. I no longer get crippled with fear. I have the ability to notice it right when it’s starting and process it then and there so that it doesn’t hurt me later.

Prior to Skyland, I often experienced conflict with my family. I think we were afraid of hurting each other and didn’t know how to communicate. And now, without that fear, I have a more consistent – and true – relationship with my family.

I recently graduated high school and started university. It feels so good. There were countless points in my life where I didn’t think I was going to make it. And so I fully believe this next chapter of my life is only going to keep getting better. I want to continue my work with different volunteer organizations and my major of political science to hopefully help underserved communities.

Skyland Trail undoubtedly changed my life. It may not have saved my life that second, but it saved my life long-term.